I have to say, 3 years later and still single? I’m actually kinda proud of it. I know the typical thing to do after a long relationship implodes is to rebound into something new. And I didn’t. I stayed single for 2 years and have only had one (8 month long) relationship since my ex-husband and I split. Yeah,I spend a lot of evenings watching netflix, alone, with oreos. Or wine. But dude. There are some good shows on netflix, let me tell you.
In all seriousness though. I’m beginning to know what it feels like to be content in where one is at. Yeah, I definitely have lonely moments, but I also have really full moments, in fact my life is so full at times I feel it could burst.
When I look back and see where things have gone, how God has taken me through some really dark places and held me through it all I can’t help but be overwhelmed with gratitude.
But back to my original subject. My relationship status. A few friends of mine here and there have taken to insisting I attempt to date and I am going to try. Try being key.
The problem with me dating is this: I really just want to be friends with someone, for a really long time, and then eventually fall in love. It may be fear-based - the ex-husband ripped my heart out and threw it in a wood-chipper and then ate the leftover pieces. So to be perfectly honest, the thought of “dating” someone in the traditional sense actually makes me nauseous. How can one possibly get to know someone in a real way if they are always trying to impress you and you never see the real person? I haven’t figured it out….hence my friendship theory.
